Straight Thru My Heart - Backstreets Boys

Hey bloggy, Im here again. Yup! its me, the emo-loner for once more. For now, Im kinda sad and maybe a lil regret. I mean yea.. for what had really happen to me is simply unresistable man. Actually, in the very first beginning, I was in full thoughts and Im always stuck between the thoughts on me and him. I don't know what exactly was im thinking on that time, when he tells me that Im the girl that he mainly wanted for his all life. I mean, hey! not everyone is perfect, NOT EVERYONE. I was shock by then when he asks me to get a job which is an airline cabin crew in Air Asia. Ok, i was thinking that was kinda cool cuz I can cope up with some cool people all over the world and also yea travelling, that's what I want for my life man. Hey! sometimes he is kinda understandings, but yea sometimes he is kinda rude to me too by speaks out those f* words.. -sigh- ..

Well, for now all I can do is that Im a big girl now to forgive and forget everything in my life now. Every single memories, promises and future? bout this im not so sure what it brings me to, i suppose that this future is only left for us to be seen and its always unpredictable ones. Hmm.. I don't have any words left for now I feel kinda sad and regret of just left him aside. I mean yes, I dumped him aside. I really don't know what Im doing by that time. Maybe I was a dumbo by then? I've been thinking that why is that Im in a relationship with a guy that I don't even know in person. And plus, I don't even know who he is or whatever his background was like. I guess Im a fool in this matter? I don't know man. I mean, yes i should know every single detailed about him. Maybe this what I don't realise in this matter. Waddafcuk! I hates when it comes to this matter. Am I still dreaming or "khayal"? I don't wanna know what is going around him .. I just spend too much time of missing him and kept blogging just ................

I just hatez this feeling now. I feel so damn heartless and meantime too, I feels sux about this.

So yea, maybe I still need times to forgive and forget everything. I really apologise for this had to happen to us. I guess he also wanna know why? Alright then. I'll say it now. Right here and right now. I ask to break up is because I felt that your not the guy that mainly what I really need and plus you always fcuk me around, Damn! I hates it so much, remember when you simply accuse me for creating the god-damn facebook account whosoever fcuktArd bastard named "bernard james" ! Gah!! fcuk it man! Your the one who is dreaming of this all, and now I am seriously hating you more and more after all that stupid accusation of yours. You really damn pathetic. Get a life would ye? Maybe my life is should be better and  A-OK without you at the first place. Maybe I was wrong in everything, but you could open your mouth and tell me straight away right? But did you? NO comment. Im outta words when it comes to you. I really don't know what you thinks of me man even tho you don't even know me in person, and so do I. Maybe this was the first mistakes that we took. We only do our lil intro in cellphone and also in msn. That's wrong man. -sigh-

I suppose that I would like to stop over here now. Im not gonna brought up this matter ever again. What is gone, its gone. Whatever is over, its already over and it will never comes back. And yea, one more thing, Don't ever ask me how am I or whatsoever. I DISLIKES talking to you. Thank you.

Stay tuned.

Till then. Stay updated for more. =)

p/s: If only you know, sometimes sorry got no cures.

rebecca is already gone. now and forever.

needs rest here. Its peacefull. =) buhbye.

Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

So yea, people on the Earth! Im back in single life again!

Im finally being in my own lonely emo world again for once more, and yea starting to say goodbye to all my memories, I guess this whats happens if a person don't even know how to keep their relationship long enough. I mean hey, if you know how to keep or you could say it as in maintaining a longer one, you are always wrong.

But seriously, I just kept hoping that he will always be happy out somwhere there without me. I still miss him although we are not in relationships no more. Frankly, I do miss him so much even tho I knew that I already hurt him alot, but I know that he is much stronger to handle this all by his own. And for now, maybe I could say that its already fated that we don't belong together. I could not hold on anymore on those kinds of promises and lies.

Maybe this is what we suppose to be in the first place, not being together for not knowing each other in the first place, elvina was right too. How could I love a person that I don't even know himself. .....

All I can say is I truly wishing your always happy there.

be happy in ur life, you could get a better girl than me.

Live life to the max. =) Goodbye sweetheart, now and forever.

miss you.

Heart_breaking ! Damn! :'(

Outta Here - Esmee Denters

Guess this is it. . . Its finally over between me and him..

thanks for the "help" that you gave... frankly we are not in a relationships in reality.

I suppose when it is the time for us to keep move on, just keep moving on and try to live a happily life.

:'( I didn't know what was he really thinks of me, maybe Im a bit emo when elvina asks me whether im in a relationships with Joshua, but later on when I say yes, she told me that he tells her diff story or whatsoever nd says no, he was just helping me out. Wow! this is what he do all the time.. I dunno man.. stop acting sweet infront of me, I don't know whether you do really have the feelings for me , for who I am.. but now, maybe I felt a lil regret of not knowing you at the first place and started to be with you...

You know what?! Let just forgets about all this and live our own life. wish you happy always without me. haiz... its ok its alright..

goodbye, my love.

Take good care of yourself.

If your not the one - Daniel Beddingfield

looking forward for my true love? I don't really know what im gonna say in this matter.. as I am damn 7 hurt since yesterday and plus maybe no one would ever understands this kinda feeling at all.. The point is that, am I a kinda girl that is easily to get hurted by the one that I love.. the one that I care.. the one whom I can share my life with thru every single obstacles.. the one that I called a hero.. and the one who will always stays by my side... ..... this is just not right, for me. Frankly, I have been recovered from my fcuking sickness in "relationships" with some bunch of guys who only chase after girls (teenage) with those so-called-perfect-looking faces and not only for that, they chase afters for hot bods too. Hey! not tryna say anyone or whosoever in here, but yea look! its the facts.. Girls like us just have to face it....

Not asking for anything, I just wanna say that although I tried so many time to be the best for him, it just won't happen seriously. Im not perfect, and I don't even claim to be a perfect one either, but you know what?! I don't think you'll give a damn on this as this is me, Im always myself. I admits that I used to lies and kept bullshits around, but hey like I said, I've changed my own perspective .... towards myself. You could say whatever you want, you could do whatever you like, and yea you can just fcuk off and be outta my life if you wants me to be a perfect.. Not everyone is alright.. I mean maybe in this time, although Im having problems that kept playing in my life but no, that doesn't mean that I don't care for you, I do. Maybe it was me for thinking so much, but hey in here, Im always myself and just tryna express what im thinking or what im listening.... Its up to you if you wanna still move on WITHOUT me.. I don't care anymore..

Seriously, I been crying for the past few days because im afraid that one day you'll get bored of me and just throw me aside... (sigh).. And ye know what? you always hurts me by scolding me and kept saying im bluffing.. waddafcuk.. hey! Im not your toy or maid okay.. im me.. a human being that also got feelings man.. and Im not so sure that are you the one for me? for the one who really cares about me, dude, seriously your not, I know if you sees this, maybe your gonna feel hurt or pissed or whatsoever..frankly for now I dun even know who you are or what you do. Guess what they say was kinda true, sometimes if ye wanna be loved, make sure that the fellar is trully for you. But you? no comment seriously. Im not trying to say that I hates you or something like that.. but yes I can't bear the burden anymore, its really damn suffering to keep it deep inside my heart and not telling this to anyone.. Im afraid, what people would think of me man, but for now, faces can just fcuk off my side.. I don't give a damn about it anymore. One thing for sure, I just wanna know the truth whether yes or no.. maybe you couldn't understands what im crapping here but hey i've still got my pride.. and its need to be taken care of. Well, try ask yourself, do you really care what I feel? Do you really love me for WHO I am? Are you willing to sacrifise yourself for me and share the whole life with me? Think again alright. Im not gonna ask for more..

And yea, I don't need your help or whatsoever.. Im not a greedy-bitch la okay.. Maybe what makes you think of me is that I always have to be a whole-time-perfect just for you.. I don't know man.. This is really suckx my life.. btw dude, don't always tryna pissed me off or hurts me by kept saying ILOVEYOU, IMISSYOU.. if you don't really feel that way.. just don't mention it infront of me or neither your friends, because I think maybe iloveyou enough to set you free.. so why not fly away? Your FREE!! Get it?

Sorry because I don't have any cellphone to make a call and call you up just to tell you this, I guess I know why this relationships don't last long.. sorry to dissapoint but anyways this is the facts alright.. you just have to face it.. all by yourself.. I guess this is it, we're end ... Forgets our promises , we are final.. the game is over.. :'( take care.. be happy in your life without me.. that would make you more happier.. and thank you for every moment and every seconds that you've spend on me.. i really love you enough to set you free, its the time now that i should tell you that we are better off being in single life again because I think that this kinda relationship, it just won't last long.. know why? what for if you still wanna keep this relationship on but already knows that there's none faith or trust in me anymore.. so why bothering me as your life? This is crazy.

Damn it! I would just stop here.. dun feel like saying it anymore.. because it really hurts me and kept tearing my heart into pieces.. as if like there's knife kept stabbing each and everytime when i stuck on this thought.. Its really a enough for me, maybe we are better suit in diff kind of world.. :'( sorry for I can't keep continuing this freaking ...... here.. Im tired of everything .. And one thing for sure, Im matured and big enough to handle everythings on my own behalf. So don't you ever try to push me into the limit that I wouldn't want it to happen. Although I still miss you, but yea as Im saying i love you enough to let you go.. Thanks again for everything. Its really appreciated. :'(

retarded right? This is how I looks when Im too tired of everything..

:'( its up to you! I don't give a damn whether you still cares or not!

scroll down... !!

Keep scrolling down!!!

Till then,

stay tuned for more updates.

:'( although its the hardest thing to say,

in the end i would say "goodbye"..

wish you happy ..

Bad Romance - Lady Gaga


Ola people. . . .

Hmm. . . . say what leh?

Actually this isn't counted as updating punye post, its just a normal thing that happen in my life.

GAH~~

wanna know what happen yesterday?! Damn it !! >.<"

Well, i told my dad that i did screwed my history papers and plus my mathx is coming soon enough.Wadafcuk right?! -____-

hmm.. yesterday my dad gave a "GREAT" counseling session on that night, it was suppose a bed time but yet his there to beri his ucapan.. =.=#

STUPID ASSHOLE CAUKIA LAN OLD MAN!! >.<"

FCUK IT MAN!

I mean, come on la k? its just SPM not even gonna be A-Levels yet right.. zzz

waddafcuk la .. he locked me up in my fcuking room.. >.<"

hmm.. tell you what, i dun even know what am i saying . . . . .

Anyways, hereby wishing every F5s good luck and All the BEST!!

p/s :: Just do your best

Study smart

Don't study hard

Till then. . .

will come back to update for more . . .

missing you prettyboy.

Outta Here - Esmee Denters

Hello world!

well, guess what?!

Im not gonna upload any pictures soon

OR

either update my fcuking blog...

exam is here.. busy busy busy with my schedules..

plus, gotta practise for my mathx , which is coming for this Monday.

Hah! anyways, i hereby wishing every F5s good luck and all the best yea!

Gambateh ppl! xD ..

Till then . .

Get me outta here! >.<"

Two Is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls ft Taylor Swift


Hello bloggy,

As far as I can recall, I have not been very attentive towards my studies for the first half of the year. As a result, I obtain poor passes in all the subjects. My teachers and parents advise me to double up my efforts so as to achieve better marks in the coming Trial Exams. But i could manage of getting 2nd place in my class for Khairul, the smarter nerdy-look guy took my 1st place. But somehow I am inclined to take things easy. Damn! I realise that i have actually failed my teachers and parents miserably by my stupid poor performance. And most of all I have FAILED myself! Gah! My future is at stake! T..T. . .

I also realise that many a golden time have i allowed to waste away in idleness and fooling around. I know that if i continue to adopt this lackadaisical attitude, i am DOOMED TO MORE FAILURE!! For now, i have a short time to catch up on my studies. And for all that, my mind is made up! I must not let down my teachers, friends, bibi and also parents. In this way round, i could have the more knowledge at the tips of my fingers. Futhermore, they too tell me to consult the examination guide-books which are available in bookshops and study how the questions are dealt with. But also warn me not to overwork myself. As the saying goes by, "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy", I ought to divide my time wisely so that I have sufficient time for study, for play, for food, for exercise and also for sleep.

I mean if i do all these, then I should be able to pass my exams with "FLYING COLOURS". Above all, they tell me not to be nervous and become a victim of "exam fever". These are ailments of those who do not prepare for their subjects well. On the other hand, some of my friends tell me to take things easy. If you don't wanna study, why bother? They say. Useless betul! Let fate decide what the future holds for you. I mean whatever the future brings we have no guarantee nor certainty. For I, only know that when the future becomes present, many surprises occur and most of them are pleasant. Even the bad things are tolerable, so there is no point for me of keep on worrying.

The truth is that, these friends do not make any effort to improve their studies. They merely go through the motion of studying when the teacher asks them to do so, well dun misunderstands on this matter, for I am not saying anyone here okay. There is no commitment or enthusiasm in their work. Maybe they have resigned themselves to eventual failure. I realise that I have been behaving like them but I am determined now NOT to let the situation worsen. I will NOT allow myself to be overcome by hopelessness or complacency.

I also know that only hard work from now on is kinda like late but it stills will do me any good. I know a better future awaits those who passes good examinations grades and I intend to be one of those kinda people too. In a way, getting good results would probably be a sort of repayment to my both parents and teachers for all the dedication, edu, support, care and also attentions they have given me. Thus, "The Will To Succed" has already becoming one of my motto and by following it too I could probably knew that success will come to my way. But for now, I could say that it's been a year that I have to bear my burden on my own, but now as I am having my life-partner, Deejay J who are sharing everything in me, with me. I also know that he wouldn't just leave me all alone here, but sometimes I do know that he is always trying his best for me. And for that too, I heart him alotZ. . .and it's uncountable. =)

Thus on the whole, I must say that I am quite an actress too. Well, all of us are. We have to because circumstances do not permit us to do as we please. People have to act in certain ways so as not to disturb the order of things. In short, we have to live and let live. Well, I have come to the end of this, I could go on indefinitely for I have many stories to tell out, but I am expected to close here. Thus again, I have to give in to expectation and sign off.

Till then.

Stay tuned for more updates bah! . . .

p/s :: I miss you Bi. Every single day and night.

Wishing you were here laying by myside and

never let me go. .

Just want you to know that I'm always stuck on the thoughts of me and you.

Missing you prettyboy.

xoxo . . . .

You Belong To Me - Taylor Swift

Hello bloggy,
Firstly, I would like to APOLOGIZE to my babyboy, Deejay Joshua and also my pool-partner, Baby MY. To my babyboy, Im sorry for everything. Bi, I do know that bi is the jealous-type and so do I. And yes, I admit that I wrote that "I miss my ex" and I realise that it had actually hurt your feelings. Im sorry again, Bi, I have already placed you in my heart and I do know that only me that could love you this way. . . but Bi, dun let your emotions takes control over you for I am loving you and ain't nothing gonna change my love for you. It won't happen, I promise you. Baby, since the day you came into my life, I felt the-whole safety, comfortable and also your love. I do really understands how you feel when you tell me that your jealous and its only just yesterday I wrote that. Baby, I just wanna tell you that no matter what happens, or whatever it takes, I'll still always love you. Just wants you to remember this always and forever,

YOUR MY ONE AND ONLY LIFE AND HEART,

ME DEEJAY, MY MAN, MY MUSIC AND MY SOUL!

AIN'T NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU,

NO ONE IS GONNA TAKE IT AWAY, IT STAYS WITH YOU,

MY LOVE IS ALWAYS FOR YOU AND ONLY YOU,

I HEART YOU BI ! ! xoxo . . .

love you as always myboy.

miss you.

Do You Remember - Jay Sean ft Sean Paul

Hello bloggy,

Ok, back to yesterday's part.. I haven't finish it at the that time, so now imma redo again? Lazy ler. Ok, to my Baby MY, I apologise that I last minute canceled our date of going for a pool game. Sorry chico, I would make it up to you after finish SPM and after my 18th birthday. And also, not forgetting my bibi too as I'm gonna stay with him temporary to look for a part-time job and college.. hmm . . . damn confused  :S

Anyways, I'm just simply downright lazy to update my blog for I'm having tight schedules for my SPM is around the corner. I suppose that most people who do not find interest in life itself. Which most people who find that they have too much time on their hands, in matter of fact, this attitudes needs correcting. I mean if they look at life with PESSIMISM  and then feel depressed about it, obviously things are not going to look interesting. While on the other hand, if they look at life with OPTIMISM and feel thankful that they are alive, the likehood will be that they will go out to do the things they love to do, and enjoy every minute of it. And of course life itself is always filled with obstacles and problems. If one allows such barriers to prevent one from living then one might as well be dead. The trick is to look above these obstacles and problems and beyond the black clouds of depression. The sun is always shines for people who can do this. Remember, Life is never dull. There is plenty to do. Spare time with your precious ones is always the wonderful time too.

Haihz. . . Till then.

Stay tuned for more..

p/s :: Bi, I'll always love you for who you are,

no matter what I'll be by your side.

And I promise that my love for you,

can NEVER change till the end. =)

Feel tired. . down.

I miss you babyboy =/

I Gotta Feeling - B.E.P

Hello Bloggy,

Could I just express out everything and put it in the blog for I cannot express it out by mouth anymore. I hates repeatition, I don wanna confuse my fcuking brain by kept on repeating the same answer the question that kept haunting inside. Hmm ... =/

I mean yes, in the very first beginning I did not wanna have a blog bout my family matters. Its too privacy, but this ain't no more pri de vate.Well, after took the advises from my teachers and few of my friends and owning a blogspot . . . . My purpose of opening a blog is because I just wanna express all my feelings here, thats all. Damn! What was Im babbling about?! =/

Okay, back to my part. Well, ye see that I've updated about the post just now which was about my dad/STEPDAD return from Shah Alam, my aunt's place and starting to make hell out of noises as if like his POSSESSED!! O.O" And yeah, before that, my stepmom told us that his been making hell of noises since his in Shah Alam. Haizyer . . . small matter transform into A BIG TROUBLE!!

After then, he kept shouting at us by saying that our work is not good, we are always the bunch of assholes ... bla .. bla .. bla ..=/ So we just stood infront of him like soldiers, standing up straight, putting our head down and plus no movement at all till my whole body cracked up except for Jo, she selamba je. >.<"

-SKIP-

Hmmm . . . . .

I mean it's been a few years that 2008 had just ended with a blink of an eye and then came along 2009 , the bad lucks, and soon enough 2010 its coming, which a brand new year for me and everyone too. I mean look how fast the time passed and guess what?!!

I'M 18 YEARS OLD BY JANUARY 05 YEAR OF 2010 . .

WOOHOO . . .!!!! xDD . .

Sighness . . . Its been almost 7-teen years since I've been with this sickness . .  I could hardly breathe for some time and my throat is getting painer. Ah well . . . I guess I shud keep moving on with this life and not making my family worries.. Hmmm . .  I mean there are no good times that I've been through although I have learn something new each day and each time in my life but that doesn't mean that I've changed. But so far so close, I've changed my style of dressing, my style of thinking, my behaviour and plus changed my perspective towards my bf too . . hehe . . xP . Hmmm . . Frankly speaking, I do still miss my ex although I knew that I've done something that he dislikes, although we are not together now but Im still hoping that he could live a better life in a better world with a better choice of his. Actually, I have been thinking about this all so much that now it had actually really affected my studies. Gah~~ worst part is no more pool and clubs!!

SPM IS AROUND THE CORNER AND ITS GETTING MORE CLOSER !! >.<"

Till then.

Stay tuned for more. =)

p/s :: This either you controls your attitude or it controls you.

Take your choice. Buhbye.

Silly Boy - Lady Gaga ft Rihanna

Hello bloggy,

hmmm ... yesterday nite was kinda crazy at the beginning as my dad just got back from Shah Alam and then just scolded me 99 all in sudden as if like his on fire. But he is, well, I din notiice that he scolded my brother and a worker at Shah Alam. Haiz.. ... whatever la. Back when he kept scolding me from around 11pm till 2am, Waddafcuk! zz ... people no need to sleep ge meh! And yeah, one by one kena scolded 99, almost everyone kena screwed by that nite. Oh Mee Gad! Damn YOU, old man! I damn 7 hate him now.. Not say now, but always since I'm small I've keep revenge towards him!! >.<" Watch OUT!

This what I really hates about him ::

1. YOU made our life miserable in the first place and yet your saying we brings you more burden.

2. YOU, your not the person who really have responsible at all. Why am I saying that is because you can't even survive in the true life!

3. YOU, your not the person that really brought me in this family, it is your mom who really ADOPTED me and put me in this family, and I am indeed feel very grateful of that but now? She's gone, Forever. T..T

4. YOU are the one who changes alot. Don't push always tryna push the blame on me la okay. Just look at yourself, old man. Damn YOU!!

5. YOU, once you came back from work.. LOL! your just trying making me laugh over you la. I do know you! YOUR a king of LIARS! YOUR always full of lies. I just learn from based on what YOU have teached only ma, So, shud the blame be on YOU or ME? Moron!

6. YOU teached Jon to go for prostitution at the age of 13.. LOOK! he is only 13 years old, still so young and yet you, THE BIOLOGICAL FATHER destroy his future! And also starting to teach him and drag him into the darkside! Do you ever realise of that? NO!! Because I think that YOUR THE ONE WHO ARE SLEEPING IN A DREAM WORLD! Wake up la SOHAI OLD MAN!!! >.<"

7. YOU starting to bring in some ciplak ugly-looking prostitute inside Uncle Bernard's office and also at home. YOU THE ONE WHO ITCHY BACKSIDE AND GO AROUND FCUKING!! Walao! Do you think your so blady geng?! NO! YOU got brain, you shud be using it la moron! I STARTING to HATE you after you SLAP on my mom, and also that it reminds me of something, which is I slapped your precious wife too!! FCUK YOU! You think your what? AGONG ga? Balik Tong Sat la! LU takda sesuai sini la! LU caukia asshole!

8. YOU try to make more reasons to chase me out of the house several times, Im ready la!!

9. YOU try to make more and more bullshits reasons to slap me, right?! YES!! YOU did. Just take a look of yourself, YOUR a cacat fellar la, Im still young la old man. Why not? YOU just fcuk of my side then.

10. YOU make up all of your story and then go tell your friend you got this la you got that, SOHAI! Don't you  realise that everyone is HATING you like shit. They treat you nice now, but later on? What Happen? YOU don't know too right. Don't think you got bunch of friends, doesn't mean that you can still hurt me.

All I can say that every single thing that you have give education, support, money etc. Thats all FAKE! Understands?!! MORON!! CAUKIA old man! And I hates it when you ask what I wanna be, A GRO? A Prostitute? FCUK YOU MAN!! I know you hates me and let me tell you this too I HATES YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN EVER IMAGINE!!!!!

Old man .. old man .. you just have to wait for my revenge .. Its coming soon enough .. then don't need the hell to come and fetch you, for I can SEND you to HELL too, ye know?!! Your lucky cuz Im having SPM now.. if not, YOUR gonna get it from me.. Imma still keeping my revenge towards you, and yes every Capricorn does keep revenge. REMEMBER that!! And soon enough too, imma be 18 years old, I'll get out of this house, Im not gonna stay with you anymore, imma work for my lil brothers and sisters, I DON'T NEED your fcuking help at all by that time, YOU can just fly kai! Go and live with your precious chinese GF of yours la, I CURSE YOU ONE DAY YOU'LL SLOWLY SLOWLY SUFFERING ONE BY ONE, GAH~~!! Your day haven't come yet, and so do your precious gf.. you just have to wait.

REMEMBER that! Imma have my revenge on you soon enough. For I got plenty of time cuz Im still young. >.<" Damn YOU old man!! Damn im kinda tired now.. maybe update it next time. =\

Till Then ..

Stay tuned for more updates ..

p/s :: Im not drunk when im blogging. This is my facts. Believes it or not, you decide. Plus, I don't bullshits on this matter. =)

Well, got to go for it is gonna be a busy day.

xoxo .. lovess

Everyone have 2 sided poker face.So do I.

hehe ... miss you guys Andrew YJF.

Mandy, Leng, Everyone.

Silly Boy - Lady Gaga ft Rihanna

Damn fcuking bored today sial! And yeah obviously took a few random piccas. The boredom strikes once more!! Taadaa!! >.<" urghh.. sick of these.

The next girl on the block =)

The lil girl is in da town .. swt! >.<"

The crazy bitch on the hook! huh?!! O.O"

speechless ..?! ily myboy =)

All time Favourite  muaxx xD

The innocent-look on this lil girl.

Hmmm .... what can I say? She's bored! Shuddap!

Well, there's not much I could say for today for it is indeed a most dreadful and worst day ever that happens in her life. Not much going out with friends unless she HAS to skip school, no more clubbing as daddy's friend's daughter won't wanna go out till late and just wanna be a good-girl at home doing her revise. Walao this 17th life is just simply de not fun at all for I CANNOT even go out except school. Stupid SPM, like what Budak KL says SPM => Saya Perempuan Malaysia. LOLx! O.O"

Till then.

Stay tuned for more updates coming up for sure. =)

kissess .. xoxo ... lovess

Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

Hello Bloggy,

Fuh! Today was suppose to hang out with Mandy. But the plan is canceled because ::

1) too busy with SPM schedules

2) too busy with my cousin going to Aussie without me :'(

3) too busy with my aunt's rented house at Shah Alam

4) have to jaga the office at D'sara Perdana with my lil sis

5) too busy with my stepmom's babbling since morning.. zzZ!! >.<"

Actually, I just woke up at around 9am then just went to brush my teeth, dry my blanket for yesterday was not dry enough and then went to study. After 10 minutes of study, heard the sound of my stepmom's bike outside the gate. >.<" shsish! Gah! Whatever la! Haiz.. Im totally speechless for today, for it was just a beginning of a new day. Morning somemore! Hmm... SIEN! Anyways, got a phone call from a friend of mine, April which now she is recently staying at Canada, haiz.. poor girl. She start crying when I picked up her call and I ask her what is going on with her and Danny Boy, so yeah she express it all out once and for all. Damn! That poor lil girl kena bull by him again. Haiz! Then I try to calm her down for she is almost being crazy crying and shouting at my ears.. Damn! But stills manage to calm her down and I started to give her advises on that since she needed my help so much. I could say that she is unlike my other girlfriend, which is kinda strong to take all in life.

    I mean , Hey! Everybody face different types of challenges, right. There's no doubt that everything may or could even happen in this world. The truth is that Im a girl that dislikes a guy or whosoever threat my friends harsh or rude. And yeah I did called that MORON! and I started shouting at him, guess what was he doing by that time? He was busy playing games with his friends. Gila de BAbi! Waddafcuk!

    Back on the advises that I gave to April, I told her that never love unless you think you can, but you have to bear with all the faults of man. Love is always blind although im in a relationship now, it still doesn't make any consence. And yes,

YOU can't always get what you WANT,

But if YOU try sometimes,

you just might FIND

Or just get what you NEED!

AND

A sadly reflection,

That a lover forsaken,

A new love may get,

But a neck? When once it broken,

It can never be set.

        I mean hey! do tell me one thang? Does true love exist? Does happiness exist too? Does eternal joy and everlasting love exist ? What the future brings? Do you know all those? Does forever alive? To tell you all this answers? Well, it is not me. But it is you who should ask yourself before you wanna try on something new or something more rough. But in this kinda life like this, I won't be stupid to preferring a life like this, I do know that everyone wanna have a pure, sincerity, full of joy and happiness, But This?? NO!

      Depends whether you like it or not, like I said. In this world, there are no one is ever the perfect or imperfect unless you think it for yourself then. Its your mind that makes you miserable, the condition, stress la, emo la, what else? Im not tryna say anyone in here, but its all the truth. Sometimes, other people could make their life much more easier while others? could only stay in miserable. Haiz.. could I just stop here? Im really dun wanna talk much more on this matter. Its SUx! But there's only a thang that I could say is that be yourself, for we never know the true value of friends. The only reward of virtue is virtue, the only way to ahve a friend is to be the one. While they live we are too sensitive of their faults, when we have lost them, then you'll only can see their virtues. Its because ::

a FRIENDSHIPS always benefits,

a LOVE could only bring injuries.

 Remember, Life has its up and down.

Till then. Stay tuned for more updates coming up!

xoxo. love, reb.

Push ft Lil Wayne - Enrique Iglesias

Gah!! What is wrong with my blogs dates??!!!

Damn all is so cacat-ted!!! zzz..

Oh yea! updates coming up..

Do stay tuned!

Till then, Chau! xoxo xD.

phew~~ another @$@$@ day..?

Can You Hear Me - Enrique Iglesias (Remix)


Hello bloggy,

Good morning, =) well today is just another day... i mean yeah yesterday!! Firstly, I was so frust with the problem at my dad's partner office which located at Damansara Perdana, and yeah! ROBOH (DESTRUCTION) time!! >.<" well ye see in the beginning we have been receiving tons of saman paper posted to our office.. I mean whoever knew my dad, Do ye think he care a damn? NO! He don't even give a damn on whatsoever paper is that. For him, its just a lil case. Lol! So yea receive colourful saman papers too, such pink, red, etc. Haiz.. crazy man..

      Anyways, full loads of MPPJs came to destruct the construction site which only is next to office. And yea I did took a lotsa pics.. but that is because daddy ask me to do so. So, before they tryna come in and start to destruct, my dad came out and start shouting, guess how was his voice will be like? Gasak ady. haha.. Too dry la his throat. Then while tryna stop them from making hell of noises, my dad went out and have a "shout" talk! Oh yea, guess what? The whole neighbourhood could only hear his voice, and by that every single neighbour start coming out and 8 gua.. Geng right?!! Another 10 minutes later, my dad bought in a MPPJ officer inside the office and have a look. -SKIP- ... Then at around 11am, every single muscular MPPJs man went inside and start destroying the construction site. Damn 7 noisy weih~~ but anyways still I could say there are NO any lengzai at all.. hehe =P. Hmmm.. while they are doing their job, I was busy taking their stupid pics.. DUN B POSER LA! @$#&^*%#@ u bukan lengzai pun >.<"!!

    Meanwhile, after got tired of taking the steps that they are doing (hitting the blocks), they only got to knock down a few parts because there are parts that cannot be knock down otherwise it will hit on another neighbour's area too, so yea they have no choice at all by not hitting it.. hehe LOSERS (L).. Finally, they got back at around 3pm.. semua BLAH! haha =P. So yea continue my day as I was so tired because early morning gotta wake up and exercise for my fatty leg.. keke~~ Ah well, lastly there's nothing more to do actually for yesterday. But stills get to enjoy the destroying part as they are making hell of noise while tryna knock down the blocks anyways gotta run cause gotta work that have to be done before afternoon.

Till then, Stay tuned for more updates coming up!

buhbye .... *wave hands* xoxo.

When boredom strikes !!

his is totally a retarded pics..

Random ... silly ... naughty? haha.. maybe a lil bit..=)

hehe.. maybe a lil drunk.. beer anyone?!

=P .. looks more like a dick pop out .LOL!

this happens when your TOO bored at office!! >.<"

betul-betul like a MPH patient! O.O"

Next, what happens when your TOO bored in the room also?!! LOOK!

This is what happens to me! So beware anytime could go @%$#@! =_+"

Someone plZZ help her out man! Bored TiLL dead!

she's sweet like sugar?! Think again. Look closer!

She's not a dick licker!! SHUDDAP!

Peek-A-Boo! .... Get Lost! Dun wanna see you! ... REB a.k.a BLURRY

Take 2 Orang Gila?!

=| ... =\ ... cute? Dunno?

well .. thank you very much for todays's entertainment.

I hope everyone could enjoy the silly piccas.. At last.. do tell me something aite. =D

The bruise that I got from crazy accident!! Pain Pain leh!! ="(

See what I mean? DaMn BLUE-BLACK.

Haiz.. more updates coming up!

Stay tune. Till then, xoxo.

suppose to be 04.11.2009

Silly Boy- Lady Gaga ft Rihanna.

Hello bloggy,

haiz.. i been asking this kinda question for long time ..?

=> what is love ?

      All i know love is always makes people go blind .. because its blind. But regarding to what my besties had to say is that "love is never having you to say your sorry because your truly partner dun just simply blame on you if he could really understands you alotz. Well, is it true that there is more pleasure in loving than in being beloved.? I mean yeah, maybe kot.

       I wanna say love is only a chatter, its acts are only a temporary one, because even the letter "forever" doesn't last long and trust me, karma do exist too.. what goes around comes around .. once he did it, that karma will surely hits him back for what he has done to you tho. I guess what my besties say was true too, for a man is always a hunter while those woman/teenages are just their part of the games. Well, there's nothing else I can say for it is definitely and not probably that every single life in everydays 24/7 365 has its ups and down. Imagine that?!! wow.. thats amazing? NO!!

      And what about happiness? Does this actually exist? Dun ask me. For I my own dun even know whether it does exist or not. All I can tell is that Happiness is not an ideal of reasons, but of imaginations. And its kinda true that true Happiness consists not in the multitude of friends, but in the worth and your choice of choosing your own path. And yes, maybe guys are only a temporary one. Because why?! [For Couples] Do ask yourself, Dun ask why am I blogging like this. =) Haiz.. why am I feeling so down now? Wanna know why? maybe cuz of my ex. I mean yeah ... He is diff from anyone .. but he sometimes can act like a jerk .. I mean like waddafcuk!! Damn! When I think about it, Gosh~~ feels like slapping him man! Damn YOU JackAss! I knew I did my mistakes and so do yours, but i did try to apologise .. its just that you just won't accept that kind of lil facts. You take things too seriously, And now YOU made me hating you more and more!! Do you know that? I dun think you wanna know because you never give a damn about what people thinks about you.. YOU FCUKER!! Swt!

     What made me thinks about you is that in the beginning, I just mention the word I Like You instead of I Love You, right?!!! YES!! Then, what is ur reaction when you hears that from my own fcuking mouth? And I dun think that you will know about it too right.. I mean I REGRET of having you as a part of my life!! Fcuk YOu man!! Screw You!! GUY GUY you're just being too choosy over a girl.. but look what have YOU done to her, YOU took what is hers! YOU screwed everything in her life and also nearly breaking a closest friendship with her besties which she knew for damn 7 longer time better than knowing YOU first! I mean what the fcuking hell is your problem? And now your tryna chase LeeYuee? KahYing? Who's next , man? Who's gonna be your next victim of sex? Fcuk OFF la! You LIFELESS FREAKz!... You suppose to know that your getting older and not much younger like last time.. your face grows old STUPIT! Face the mirror la before you judge or gossip about me!! Stop sending stupit rumours about me la.. like you said I won't regret to leave you aside... Fcuk Off! And yeah at first I was thinking of this fcuking cibai rhyme in my fcuking head!

       "He was once my North, my South, my East, my West,

My schooling week, my working week and my Sunday rest,

My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song,

I thought that LOVE would last forever;

But in the end, IT HAS PROVED ME WRONG!"

        

           Ah well, I could only describe you as a word :: useless :: Its damn hurts alot when I look the way you treated me.. It almost like a dog following what its owner says. That YOU! Fcuking Asshole! Gah~~ There's nothing else I can say no more... To me, your just a another guy which desperate for sex! thats all.

A guy like this is totally not worth the price because he is memang a ciplak and also a cheap person..likes to jual mahal.. too choosy over boobs.. waddafcuk! Get out of my side! Hmmm ... >.<" so yeah in life, there's no doubt on everything may happen such as a lie which can be halfway round the world before the truth has got its boots on. =)

I always remember this,

A kiss is still a kiss,

A sigh is always will be a sigh,

The fundamental things that apply,

As the time goes by.

**sometimes great person seldom see their faces in a true glass.

Hmm.. feels kinda tired and relieved now.

Got to go jogging =) tee-hee..

Arios Amigos!!

what a b-b-b-boring day =\

Listening Do You Remember -Jay Sean ft Sean Paul..

 yup.. damn 7 sien and also tired..

dad not around .. mum too ..

bf lagi buat ape? still kat college lor =\ miss him..

haiz.. see biler nak exam.. i'll surely go to "bed"..

hahas.. good nite ppl .. ;P

Anyways, maybe wanna sneak out tonight ..

CLUBBING NITE!! xD with my babyboy .. teehee

well .. got to go cuz works pilling up.. haiz

i miss you and imma meet ye tonite ..

love you babyboy .. muaxx .. XoXo!