28.10.2009 GRADUATION DAY ..wait! clubbing too.. shud I go?

 Hello bloggy,
Urmm.. today suppose to go to school for the stupid un-official langsung of graduation day for 2009 .. =X
What the hell?!! Apa hal weih~~ I mean basically all F5s shud be graduating after finish SPM ma, then maybe like that could be more fun. <=)
  But hey, for today's graduation ceremony, I did went .. WaiJin came and pick me up at around 7am and yea definitely stuck in the traffic jam .. but it didn't last long la the traffic jam .. =) so we reach school almost 7.30am .. okay, talk about WaiJin fetch me to school and when we reached, I come out from his car and I did say thank you for his kindness and sorry for all the troublesome ... awww ... TQ WaiJin xDD. And yea few of my friends saw I came out from his car, and then they started to ask crazy question : "Reb, your boyfriend fetch you to school ar?!! zzz.. Hey that guy not bad wor." I was like O.O"! Swt!! Then I almost repeated 10 over times by saying his not .. his not .. his not.. zzz ... his just a friend of mine lar. What the hell weih~~ Does he really look like my boyfriend?!! Why everyone so 8 gua de?!! Deng! Because when Nabila saw me coming, I was walking behind her then we walked together, after that the question starting t drift out from everyone. What the Fcuk!! >.<"

Hmm ... truthfully is that yes I admit that I am being emo all along =\  .. maybe is because of my so-called-future-whenever-boyfriend (Ice)'s problem. He is sick now. poor boy =P... but stills syg him lar okay =). Oh well, today seems tired but happy cause after I gave Mandy and my jubah to Danson and Khairul to wear, then straightly just walk out the front gate and then just straight away heading to Mandy's house. It was like I spend only [consider] 1 hour walk from school to DJ SS22/37, Ah well, at least I can consider doing morning exercise ma =) Lol! Then I slept at her room. Durh! Takkan her toilet meh>?!!
  
     Gila! Lol! Well when she's taking her bath, I went to sleep for I guess ... 2 hrs gua. Then, took breakfast at her house too. =) then went for a nearby park.. hehe.. Well after a while, go back home and just sit down watching chinese movie. Lol! Then after watch jor, we left to 1-U at around 11am. Thank You , Leng Lui xD then we went to buy SEVENTEEN magazine .... haiz.. Mandy the paparazzi biatch.. hehe =P. Then Mandy say wanna go Forever 21 to show me the skirt that she amazed about. I was like O.O" okay nila. Then we walk around cuz its so bored. Then, we decide to play snooker .. haha .. Mandy and I played 2 rounds .. while playing half way winning the game, Leng came in sudden. Soh Poh! Let me tell you this la, whenever you call this girl har, she won't pick up your calls de. Shish >.<" --SKIP--
     Then after game, we went to makan dekat CHARMS.. hehe .. lastly I pay out only RM4 .. Gah~~ i already pokai de la.Diao! These days having difficulties in money aspect man. use to sewa the jubah la .. this la .. that laa .. la .. la ... la...What the Fcuk! @@"! haiz .. everything that is involve in money that I have spend are totally out of the blue .. Gah!! >.<" Then after CHARMS, we wanted to go for a movie at TGV/GSC de, but all the shows are b-b-b-b-boring. Hmm .. now is getting more boring on days by days. Swt! Maybe post another one at another day bah. Anyways, more updates are coming up soon. =) enjoy!

**About the accident part, I dun feel like saying it out. Maybe next time =)

 Missing you babyboy =S.

Muaxx .. x0x0.

26-10-2009 wha-wha-wha she have to say =)

Hello bloggy, =)

Hmm.. what i wanna say today... actually what is happening around today ..... Urmm .. well not much actually happens today because spending almost half-day at school. LolZ..

That's normal .. Durh .. Hmmm.. well gonna sumarized it up. At school, only me, Danson, mag and Yikchen and some other pupils came to school. While Mandy and Leng are absent because of laziness .. =.="

hehe .... well I was late today, almost. But yeah sudden woke up and look at the time, its almost late!! -skip-

Back to the school, me, Danson, Mag and Yikchen was enjoy chatting for almost 4 periods .. hehe .. teachers not teaching ma so mai chat lor.. xDD.

At first, we were having our gossips and then we talk about Carmen .. hehe .. =P

Me and Mag was wondering why Carmen act like as if she is so afraid to talk to us? then we decided to ask Danson, then bla-bla-bla.. Danson told that she is a person who gets into jealousy damn fast. =\ hmm.. okaaayyyiiee... but eventually if a girl gets jealous very quick, that could lead you easily into anger. Rawr! hahas.. well bout it? depends la! =P

Haizz.. -skip the topic la- damn lazy to elaborate it.. damn 7 complicated!

Gah~~ so what happen for all the convinience study. Whatever! Damn! I felt damn worry now for SPM is around the corner.. Swt! O.O"! Every F5 is! Hmm.. dam tired la these days .. well talk about the famous-sexy babe April .. admit she's hot! but just too skinny ady.. hehe.. sorry ya babe.=) -Skip-!!!

Fcuk! english grammar is getting worse and worse! Arghh~~ Wednesday! on 28 Oct 2009 leh! GRADUATION AND CLUBBING DAY TOO!! Gosh~~ almost forgot about it. =\ haizyer brain damn sakit la now. Bikin pusing only.. GAH~~

** sorry bloggy, tmr or next day only try to update you back la.. more updates coming soon =)

=( wish I'm not in this kinda life right now ... damn tired!!!

     someone, please help me???!!!!

To be continued....

23.10.2009 Friday Best Friends Day.. but a day w/t Leng =\

Oh well for today definitely is a truly happy day for me, wanna know why?
Because I get to hang out with my friends but just only for today lor. And yup this time I didn't FFK oh..
hmm.. so whats the story is like today? Lets just see..

=> In the very 1st beginning around 7.00am reached school to meet U-whye and Yikchen but couldn't meet them cause dunno where they have been.. Grhh! Then from school I went to TTDI market's toilet to have a change while waiting for them to come over.

=> Then, both came in sudden and when we finished, three of us heading to Maggie house by walking together. And yeah its quite fun that besties walking together sambil chatting. Indeed it was a great feeling ever!! =D

=> We walk and walk and walk .. through the road, and school etc. Then finally a few more steps, we reach Mag's house. Before we reached, we say Mag was waiting for us. Hahaha... awww... she is so sweet xD then we went inside. But before that, Mag ask us to keep quiet for her parents argued yesterday. Haihhzz. what a poor thing to Maggie. I really getting worry and worry about her for what she told us that she's gonna work alone outside. But yeah we did gave her some useful advise by asking her not to think too much and try to be strong at all times and keep move on with her mother. Hmmm... her condition is getting worse and worse by day cause of her family problem. For me, I could really see that she is indeed love her family so much although she kena "tortured deeply" in her. -sigh- Lets not continue this. Its making me sad and more worry about her. If I could, I do really wanna help her alot. =\

=> Back to what happen at Mag' house, we spent almost 2 hours at her house. Im watching tv, U-whye is having a massage in a massage chair while Yikchen went to sleep with Angie. Lol! So Poh!! .. U-whye kept asking for Mag's laptop and Yikchen was playing it all the time in the room. Swt! O.O"! Then we bertolak from Mag's house to 1-Utama at 9.00am. Fisrstly, Mag says she wanna call her grandpa to come over her house and fetch us but we say dunid for we wanna be independent. Lol! so yeah we walk from Mag house to 1-U. Indeed it was a long journey but yeah eventually we spend time together chatting all the way from getting bored. Damn! It was a hot day then at the first place for me, Im wearing a spaghetti in black and a white-half pants. Lol! but still sweating all along.

=> then finally we reached around 10.00am YAY!! but then we went to One World hotel toilet first to realease our thingy. hehe.. Its quite fun although we all are tired for being in along journey walking. Then we walk to Arena. Me and U-whye were sleeping while Yikchen eating her breakfast and Mag is busy messaging. After then, Ice called me and ask baby where are you? then i say I kat OU, u wanna come izit? but he say he couldnt make it cause of the jam  at Sunway .. and he say he can't make it on time for it is quite far from SEGI COLLEGE to 1-U. Maybe next time bah so I say its ok then =). After then, we went to GSC to buy tickets but before that I bring Mag with me for walking around 1-U for I've been so long never jalan-jalan with her ady. -skip-

=> After that before we got back to GSC, we walk again. Until Carmen, baby Jia Xin and Zhen came and took "mama" away. Then we headed back to Yikchen cause she's alone. hmm kesian pulak kat dia. hehe ..
Finally around 12pm, we went to GSC to meet U-whye but dunno where he went.. nah nevermind.. Me, Mag and Yikchen went to a place [forgot where ady].. to play games. Well we did enjoy ourself then. =D Then around 1pm, we met Mandy at GSC and we went for snooker. WooHoo!! the only 1st round jor I just won Mandy. haha xDD sorry ya babe.. hehe.. =P Then the second round gave U-whye who took my place and won over her too! Yay! =P Haha.. the noob [me] versus the pro[Mandy] .. But too bad that all this happens without Leng. Haihzz.. =( After got tired of snooker, we went Honeymoon and eat... fogot what I've eat and drink ady, only get to remember the ovum-like jelly soda and the ice-cream.. yummy!!.. xDD

=> Last and finally I had to go back to office after paying the bill. Its around 3.00pm I went back office by a stupid taxi fee cost RM12. So stupid lor!! Damn! Wth!! last time only have to pay RM9 now RM12.. apa hal naik harga ni!! kecoh la!! SOhai !!! then after reach office jor, i saw no one only my sis who helps to jaga the office.. Urghh!! haihzz.. nevermind la at least I really did enjoy myself for today. xDD

p.s. Sorry can't seem to upload any piccas cause I didn't bring my camera =P
      Maybe next time. =)
      Well, more updates coming soon. About SPM, lets just not think about it at the moment.
      Got to go cause there's more work that have to be done by tonight =)

** Maggie,
    Please do listen to what I've advise you just now kat 1-U.
    I do really hope that you'll get much more mature after all this happens.
    At last, be a grown-up girl, think positive, look front dun look back, head held high and always be strong.

Ok. Miss ya babes.. XoXo Muaxhh. xD

22.10.2009

Hello again,

Well for today is just another normal day as usual =)

Ok, Lets just skip to the important topic of the day that is today. Lol!!

Well actually today i felt sd for almost the whole day. Haihz .. Dun feel wanna talk about sad things anymore. Its useless..

Okay, recall back what happens yeasterday is that yeah I've met a guy-friend whose named KenRee =) Cavie hahas.. And yeah me, KT, and Ken too were playing webcammiee.. Lol! that two fellar got crazy about that crazy stuff. I was like @@! Swt! Yesterday night was actually quite fun where theres this two fellar and bunch of my galfriends [clubbers] were enjoying webcammieee too! Lol! xDD Indeed it was quite de fun. xDD .. hmmm... so what about it yesterday was totally out of our mind. Haha ... and yeah I admit that I did flirt around cause of boringness. Swt! This might sound crazy because we talk about sex?!! WTF!! Believe it or not, depends!

And Ken did told me bout his stuff, KT does too, Jenny my babe, yeah she always as usual wan la.. sorry babe.. hehe =P .. Then while webcamiee, sudden a stupid cockroach fly to my keyboard. I was shock indeed and nearly fall but i didn't lor =P. Abuden! I memang geli with cockroach! Yuck! Damn crazy is that Ken ask me to fry that blady cockroach and eat it!! Ewwww man... I hates cockroach!!!!

Hmmm mmm .... -sigh-

Well yeah tomorrow im going 1-Utama with my friends after group-study at McDonald in Centrepoint, Fuck! Theres where I got my car into accident. Sad case man.. kesian my babycar.. =( Well actually I got no idea on what kinda topic wanna say. Im clueless... Gah! dun wanna continue this alrdy la.. Boh mood liao.!

Created a stupid-strange poem....

hmm.. take a look then?

There is no one like you,

Where there's no one else that can touch my heart like you do,

I could search for anyone for all eternity long,

But i couldn't find one but find there's no one like you.

Your mercy flows like a river wide,

Healing comes from your gentle hands,

Loves comes from your precious heart,

Safety are always there in your strong protective arms,

Finally there is no one that is like you.

Well, got to go.. more updates coming up! Ciaoz.. =)

crazy friend i ever met! Ken!!

hahas.. its fun talking to Ken the whole day.
Well can considered the whole day we spent time together.
Lol! this fellar betul betul gila..
haiz.. Damn bored la today..
Cause have to like sneak out to use my pc when parents not around.. haha noty gal.
you see what happen for today is that yeah EXAM!

Gah! next time baru cakap semua la! tired la today!!!

Hehe.. to be continued!

cannot update my blog jor =\

hmm .. well today probably the last day i blog because yea gotta do my exam revision..
what a busy .. busy .. busy day jor.. =)
so yeah gonna upload some piccas to put for fun nila..
hahas .. camwhoring for the last day at office =) .. yeah last day ady .. ngng =') sad sad...
well take a sneak peek at my pics.. ::

Lol?!! well maybe next time after SPM then only i'll come back with more updates alright..

and yeah so long by then .. blog in for more updates soon enough =) buhbye!! xDD

It's a sad world in the very first beginning but its always gotta do about MONEY! >.<"

Hmmmm .... For today is kinda like a sad-world to everyone in the beginning includes me..Uncle Bernard, which is my LAWYER BOSS, my stepmom [youngest], my sister JO, etc.. Well. actually it's suppose to be a happy day by then. But, since I fell sick last 3 days, and my fever still on haihh.. everything in office starting to change, and yes indeed its changing. At first, I was thinking why everyone starting to look sad-emo ...?! O.o" I was like wondering maybe is because of my health or something else haihh ... what a life? .. A total different life man .... >.<"

First thing is that yeah on the thought of my boss, Messrs Bernard Francis. Maybe he get upset or kinda down its because of, probably because of the case in Singapore. Probably his upset of that case its because he spent almost everything and also spent more effort in  it too. I mean a guy like mmy boss, truthfully he is one of a workaholic ever, his nice, caring but sometimes when he gets angry, you don't/can't see the fire burning in him, he will sudden "burst out" .. lOl ?! nvm ... =)

Mmmm ... talk about my dad.. Gosh~~ he is really damn pissed since last week, let just say that since he fell from the floor cause of slippery. MG! I mean although he knew my bio mom hates me alott, but still he dun give a damn and on that time too, he called home to ask that chinese stepmom of mine to come to office immediately. And yeah, the worst thing is ... he complains to her and also my bio mom by saying that me and my younger stepmom dun wanna jaga him anymore. WtF! When I heard everything he said to her, I was like @@! ...then damn! start tearings :'|  -sigh- I mean maybe those who really reads my blog, maybe its kinda hard to believe what im trying to say because maybe they are lucky than me? or its just something else larh.

Ok. I mean straight to the point, it is really calm to blog and also by blogging I can share almost of my stories especially when it comes to the part of my life. Damn! This is seriously a retarded blog ever man.. -sigh- Talk about dad again, he is indeed ........ A GREEDY OLD MAN!!  I mean realistically speaking, I also do know that money is an important thing in everybody's life and so do mine. Well but always have to remember that moderation is always the key to life and that is how a person should live or spent the money. But for my dad, he is seriously greedy in this topic. I mean, ok let's just consider a man who spends most of his times at outside fcuking other bitches and also trying to accumulate wealth. Maybe he also realises that others are also trying to do the same thing. But question is :: how does one grabs hold of what others desire too? if wealth, cannot be obtained by one way, other ways may be employed in any other way. And yeah! my dad! This man lies and cheat others to get what he wants. But however similarly others will cheat and also they might be also manipulating him too. Who knows this could happen, right? And the truth is, basically if this man's luck holds, he succeeds. Otherwise he falls, pcks himself up and tries again. The never ending game continues. Like what I heard from a old man, he says always live within your mean and the word "corruption is rife".. I mean why is he doing this all although he knew its haram but stills doing it especially starting up that crazy bussiness ever! [dun wanna mention it]... =skip= .... haihh

Like I said it before, there are full of drama, scene, hatres, love, etc.. I mean or I guess people whosoever are really lucky for not being in my position although they are not happy with their life, but still they have their loved ones who are always be there with them. haihh... All I can say is if I'm not a understanding person, I dun think I do really care about all this shit happening around me, but seriously it is truly a damn heavy burdento me now. I felt like dying rather than carrying this whole burden on my own. I really could not bear the burden anymore. I always ask myself why is this situation have to happen after Popo is gone forever. I knew this gonna happen after she past away and just left me her all alone. I mean the one and only I loved :'( the most among all is only my oldest grandmother. And now, she's gone from my world and I really miss her so much!! :'( I've expressed all out, but actually its not considered all yet. For now, I just revealed the half part of stories bout my life and yeah indeed it is really killing me slowly and slowly... .... And for me, I could say that I am really really really lucky to have a guy who really does understands, caring and spends most of his time with me even though he has much more to consider in his life. But he, always put me as his first priority in his life, and he always tells me that he really loves me, he really wanna share everything and always ask to be apart in my life. I mean it!! Sometimes, I feel ashamed of myself, maybe I was thinking too much till I really got depressed myself. But after all I do really loves him much more than my ex. He is one of a kind really. But in the end, bout my families life, is there any solution to get rid of all this shit!!

-sigh-

                  

To be continued ...

My happy-lovely Day =D

haha..

hmm.. well for now.. actually not much to say, its just that just a simple-dimple one.

hmm -sigh-..

been thinking.well yeah its true that it is definitely easy to always tells others not to worry, but is always a problem that less easy to take such advise for my own. Just for my own good. God. =X

and yeah eventually i din even sleep the whole day. I mean yeah almost 24/7 damn! panda! =D haha...hmm.. anyways yesterday morning @round 1 a.m. talking on the phone with my babe Mandy.. haha. i was freak out at the first place because we both involve almost in everything..and durh i admit that we do sometimes bump into the similar things..such as in relationships..haha.. and whatever problems we got, we always be "sharing-is-caring". Haha! I just simply love her man!Damn!.. and yeah yesterday she did told me bout hers and so do i. And she did ask for my opinion / suggestion on helping solving her MAJOR problem which is making a damn IMPORTANT decision ever that would, i say would probably change her life in the future. She is a understanding person to me. She always helps me solve my problem. I just felt that she is like a guardian friend that was given for me. Damn! How lucky am i weih.. Haha xD.. when im with her i do really feel easy and free.. unlike at home have to like always YEAH I MEAN ALWAYS obey to the rules. Well they have their own rules so do us.. hehe.. =P hmm.. haha Mandy was like damn 7 panic at that time when she called me and told me so. I was like yeah just say out the truth and tell her what to do. Damn! haha..but then Mandy also did told me that the guy confess to *** .. and she is having problem on either accept or rejects ***?!! haiz.. what a love life.. that guy is almost like my boy ICE [his nickname]. I mean durh he is a sweet-talker..every guy is if they want something in repay. =P but for Mandy, she is different. She don't want the guy to be hurt like her past. [not gonna mention] hehe.. she is a truly strong girl that i've ever met in my life.Unlike some other friends of mine, once they have their "broke-up" season, they would [durh] probably express to me first and yeah i would just like give them some advice to say not to worry there are more better guys in world, u can man man find them, But of coz not the good ones la.

But thought of giving them an impression of calm and steadiness but inside of me, yeah indeed i knew much more better. Again and again my worries were for nothing. They just don't understands what i mean at all. Haiz.. this probably what they called the "the monkey generation in being relationships". xD not mention me la ok. =] Everything went smoothly in the beginning and I "sailed" through the whole thing without a hitch. Thought on the part of my life will be smooth and perfect, on this very first place, didn't knew that the starting part of my love life would be a hard one but yup with the advices from relatives, friends etc. I can handle my problems all by myself. Damn! look the way i talk is just like a grown-up Kid.. wtF! hahas. xDDwell for now is like most all the 365/24/7 hehe.. im almost being myself and yeah i memang myself.. Friends always tell me that dun ever try to be somebody or a wannabe because u'll get yourself hurt badly and that could spoil ur own imej babe.. I was like OH OKAY! haha.. love them!!

hmm..

so what about my love life...?!! I don't know what to say seriously. I just love him thats all.. He is my life and my world. He never tries to hurt me not even once. He loves me for who i am although im not ****** anymore. I love him so much till the end of the world. He is my world now and yeah all i wanna say that I will always love him for who he is. He wants me not because of my sexy features. He wants me because im kinda special to him [thats what he say].... Damn! Everyday and every night he would probably be calling to check on me. He even ask to hang out [haven yet] just to be with me. He is always by my side whenever im sick, he would yeah jaga me and comfort me just like a baby. He always be true to me although he know that whatever i say that could hurts him. But most of the time i care for his feelings and so do him.. Just love him so much. Being a part in my life, it isn't really that easy,the truth is that i can be very choosy sometimes although he already knew that. And he did promise that he will always love me no matter what. To me, being in a relationships isn't about how the guy's figure are, is what the guy thinks about you and the reason why he wants to be with you, but mostly look deep in his heart, tries to understands him more and by that maybe u can see whether he is sincere or something else. That is all up to you.

All i can say is being a girl ain't easy, because YOU are the one who bears the pain forever when ur being dumped by your boyfriend like a TONG SAMPAH/RUBBISH! Oh well.. just could say some guys althought they are better-looking or hot, they ARE not worth it. Cause once they already got ur pussy, then after that they just dumped you aside and starting treating you like as your not "anyone" to him. FcUk! -skip-

At last, I Love You Ice!...xDD

To be continued..if im free =P

what a life.. =\ ...... :'(

hi =]...

well for today is not much special or interesting, just feel a lil guilty bout dad fell down.. and sprank his ankle..but his kinda fine now stayin vit my chinese 3rd stepmum at PJ SS17 and yea the whole day @ dad office probably doing nothing unless camwhore at storeroom hahas.. sitting infront of my computer and fb-ing and also just listening songs.. thats what i do..

mmm.. [sigh].. probably some are just thinking that yeah maybe im blogging just because of too free of making up stories..[thats not true]well its reality for REAL!.. and yeah maybe i say maybe few does believes that my life is like that or they truly believe with what had really happen in my life.Not to say to be harsh or rude but yup this is truly the facts of my life. Well, all i wanna say is that for those who reads my blog or anything, i just hope that ?!! yeah... believe it or not it is their/ bloggers choice. =X

....sigh....

The point is that am i always suppose to be torn-apart like a breaking glass and be left in a corner crying and all-time-emo like a .....?!! Damn!! This kinda thing is just ain't right for me. And yeah if only the people have choices to choose, what would the first one i'd choose..?!! I'll choose to have a happy and live life to the fullest and maybe that could just relieve my stress out of my fcuking mind. So yeah..did took my friend advice to create a blog and start blogging. Well, what they say was quite true.Sometimes blogging just to release the heavy burden, release stress and lotz of mind-thinking. And what a good idea to blog anyway although i used to ask why is people always likes to blog so much.. and for now i do really understands the reason why. For sure, I could just express everything to stay away from getting heavy burden all alone. I'd always have a question in my mind... askin Why am i always hated by the one I sayang (My Family....) hmmm.. :'( its just that no one or somehow it just be answered.. and its like gonna be a question that would never be answered FOREVER!!.Urghh!!haiz... :'( damn tears!! ahh.. just wanna forget about it.. =skip= FcUk! sudden felt heart full-filled with hatres now and damn pissed! When it comes to sad part of my life. DAmn! Damn! Damn!hmm....damn! :'( im drowning now in my own tears.SHIT!:'(

... ... When a person have nothing to strive for, is life worth living for? ... ... :'(

To be continued .....