what a stupid mistakes i've ever made!! betul-betul bodoh la!!

These are the few things that made me regret being in relationship vit you......
at first.. u say u luv me...n also ur the one who pulled me up...
and now look @ what u did to me...jz letting me down in sorrow...
n the most saddest thing that happen to me is when looking @ u never did or bother to say u're glad that u've found me..and jz acting stupid like an a*****e there n kept telling me not to tell others that v r in a relationship....n u did also ask me not to love u so much....on the day when u chat vit me...u also tell me that i always bullshitting.... finally v break cuz u say im childish ....u jz let love down....and u let me down....i am so shock@@ when u say lidat...n u also called me jz to tell me that im childish...n askin me to stop bullshitting u... i was like what did i do man....im totally stunted there when u say lidat...

but didn't u realise that when im in problem...i nid u...n i din tell u so cuz i noe u'll still think that im still like to bullshits a lot.....n on that day too....when u wrote on ur msnname when i nid u,ur not around....then on that time too i was thinking the same thing.....but it's jz no use too....cuz its useless now...well...there's nothing much i can say ...its jz that u all always say im bullshit abouts this and that.....

for now i'll jz have to listen what my best friends say...
like what had maggie told me b4...life is memang easy come n easy go....
but finally i realise that in this world...nobody is perfect wan n so do i.....
it's jz that i wana say i regrets for all the words to make u special or cool......
omgosh~! plz plz plz forget about it.....now starts to erase all those "sweet" memories...
for those who read my blog....this is reality...like my best friends say....guys are useless...
girls dun get easily vit them....and for me..i jz gotta be STRONG~!!
and for those advise from mandy,leng n oso mag...
i really appreciated it so much....
like what leng says....true friends dunid no demands...jz sincerityn honesty ...
thats all i have to say....cuz in the end about all "monkeys luv"....its jz a bullshit....
and like right now....i really shuld be happy vit all my 4 best friends around me...
they are always here for me....and always are there to lend their ears....n advises from them...

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U GUYS DE!!!!!
~MANDY ~MAGGIE ~LENG ~YIKCHEN.... n oso counted "mama"....
muaxx .... x}

i am really sorry about it ... so sorry ....

to mandy n maggie .....
i noe u guys won't wana listen to what i say ....
and i also noe that although watever reason that i give....
u guys won't trust me anymore ....
and that day i really kena "kam" by him[dad] de ....
well ... it's not that i just giving stupid excuses....but it's reality....
i'm really really sorry for "ffk" u guys .... i noe that u guys really angry me...but i can't do anything...and yes ... on that day i was supposed to go on the first meeting de...i cannot be a leader @ all ... im so so so so sorry ....it's not i like to "ffk" de ...
but this all happen too sudden....i guess u guys also will get fed up vit my this attitude ..."ffk"..
i just wana say sorry ... i noe sorry got no cure .... because i've made u guys angry lek....hmmmph..
im so so so so so so so so so so sorry for "ffk" u all ....
so so so so so so so so so sorry ...... =C
i really hope u guys vil forgive me of what i've done.......
im sssssssssooooooooooo ssssssssssssssooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyy~!~! ...
really sorry for it .... im sorry....

regrets of being in relationship vit him

sometimes feel like missing someone ..

sometimes feel like wana cry out loud..

i jz wana noe de truth ...

does he really love me ..?!

but it has proven for these days ..that he is not!!!

when v are on it.. everyday every nite he vil leave me a msg ...

jz to ask whether have "u eaten .. gudnite..sweet dreams .. i love u "..

but in the end all this words that came out from him is jz a bullshit!!

but in a sudden .. he had left me vit a breaking 'glass'..n saying im always acting like a kid ..

when i was in painness..he seems dun care at all...

n kept talking to his friends ..playing games ..

guess now im wrong..choosing him...tot of him being "the one"

n tot he is the one for me ..

but it jz that i've realise he is not..a true love doesn't exist now ..

it vil come when it is ur real time ..

n for that ..true happiness vil always be vit u ...

no matter what .... i'll still be happy although im not vit u anymore ..

f*** it .. asshole .. heartless ...

feeling hopeless...

well ... jz recently open a new blog here ...
haiz ...i noe dat my english is sux and it also sound stupid ...
but jz... grr ... nvm ....

forget about it .. for these few years i've been suffering from my dam sickness ..
but .. i dun think they [not my best frens] vil give a dam ...

i jz feel that im hopeless .. lifeless ..
every time when i get in a relationship ...
i'll surely get hurted ..well most of the time...
its jz dat its felt so stupid to think all of those now ..
f**k it ... im dam ******* ....


but ... when im in problem, ill surely ask mandy for help ...
n so do my other best friends .. they are always there for me ..
although its sound stupid .. but .......
for now .. im jz being an asshole ... dam retarded ....
and i always cry like a crying baby...