Merciful heaven !! At last I've made up my mind to put on record of what I've been through ! But shall I ever be able to do it? Shall I have the courage? I don't know. It's all seems so packed full with mysterious, so inexplicable, so unintelligible, so crazy and felt so numb! =(
If I were not sure of what I've seen, certain that there has been no flaws in my reasoning, no mistakes in my facts, no gap in the strict sequence of my observations, perhaps I should consider myself merely the victim of a hallucination? the sport of some strange optical delusion.
After all, who knows what or how all these could happen? Perhaps not many knows my story and now I'm putting it on blog, I really don't quite know why. And I don't know why. Maybe just in order to shake off the obsession, which really haunts me like some ghostly horror terryfying nightmare.
Anyhoo, I have always been a lonely child, stubborn matured-looking lil girl. In fact, I have always lived alone, maybe because of a some sort of uneasiness, which makes me feel that the presence of others sets up in me. But with this exception, it had nothing modern about it. How can I ever explain it? I just can't.
missess his constant loyalty and
caring through all difficult times
