Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart - Alicia Keys
Happy                                              - Leona Lewis

Hey bloggy, Im back! Firstly, THOUSANDS APOLOGISES for all my reader and my best friends whose out there wondering where have I been M-I-A-ing.. LOL.. Well, sorry for letting the blog neglected or outdated because this year of December 2009, its been a miserable life to me, precisely in every single aspects. Finally, im glad that SPM is outta my mind for now.

Dear Best Friends,

I wanna apologise if I cannot make it up with ya guys to shop or hang kai, its cause Im too busy especially these days and this month helping out my dad who recently got into accident and yet his office accounts (as you can see I've updated), my boss's cash voucher/accounts la. Now, he got into an accident and fractured his left leg and his now on a wheelchair. I'm sorry if ya guys had recently been trying to help me out by ajak me keluar hang kai or something, and that I've gave a lotsa excuse its cause my dad. And yes, I've got no mood on everything, neither logging in to FB, Tagged, Friendster etc. Plus, seriously sorry sorry sorry to say all this, but my dad told me that maybe after my 18th birthday or his leg recovered, then Im allowed to do anything I want. Includes hanging out with friends or with boyfriend. I just wish that I could make it up to ya guys and this time, on the behalf of my very 18th birthday, I would like to celebrate it with my family and all of my friends. :) Hope ya guys forgive me.

Anyways, however on the 25th Dec 2009, I couldn't manage to spend my x-mas, neither with my friends or my family member. I've been working since lately. This all happens as if I have some sort of bad luck stuff. Im having stupid and crazy financial problems, relationship probs, family matters, myself.. ah .. everything la.. Its sux. This year of x-mas, I have to admit that this year DOESN'T ROX, IT SMELLS SUX LIKE MY FCU*KING SOCKS!! .. For my entire life, I've only receive 1 present on my x-mas this year. This might sound a lil stupid, but its true. And, precisely I have NO x-mas spirit for this year. Cipet sial pantat de babi! >.<" I just couldn't resist it! Urghh! Frankly, this year had brought me into lotsa lotsa miserable and crazy kind of life. For sometimes too, I can't really seem to happy, not even for a second. I could just only gave them, who sayang me, a fake smile and laughter. But, as far as I can recall, I guess that there's many out there too had not a wonderful time on their x-mas too. Well, in short. What I mean is there are few people who are out there, they also have no spirit to cele8 and so do I, but I don care. While others who are spending their time with their ones celebrating x-mas, Im just left by aside just to watch them enjoy the happy moments and having fun spraying foam around, everywhere. (haih) .. Moreover, I've been having lotsa lotsa thoughts stuck on my mind. I mean, hey I've changed tremendously. My EVERY single appearrance. Hairstyle, makeups, fashion, attitudes etc. And even my cell phone number. ( =.=#)

Futhermore, I guess that Im happy and satisfied with having all my friends around me like Elvina, Pam, Ken(Budak KL), KenReeCavie, Marcus Wong, DarDar, Azhari, Hafiz, KahYing, Weimenn, JingWei etc. I love these friends, not forgetting my own personal BFFs too. (hehe). . . . =) I really do appreciate those advises (especially from Elvina,KahYing,WaiJin) , supports (especially from Mandy) and opinions on everything that I need. I mean hey! even tho that we are not that kinda close to each other, but yea thats what friends are for aite. What can I say for more is that do appreciate, learn to love, forgive the one that you have beside you but also not neglecting the love for your family too.

Each day and each very time, every single moment and every single minutes counts. Been watching her life keep moving on with every test that she had to pass and also try enjoy every single day with happy. Ah well, it could be a boring day but there's truly plenty of work to do since dad got accident lately. Hmm. . . =\ (haiz)

Well, I would like to stop here now. I got lotsa work to be done. Will update again, there's plenty of pending posts to be update later.

Arios!

Till Then,

XoXoX.

Reb signing out.

I Gotta Feeling - B.E.P

Hello and Good Nite too. Hay, look whose back in blogging world today. Well, just gonna update it in a short one too. O am gee . . . . just take a look at what time now. Its morning jor lu. =) swt.

For now, Im seriously in a "big" trouble now. You could say that Im kinda in miserable life now, Its just messed up .. for a moment now. Hmm.. I bet almost all my friends knew that my dad got into an accident, a bike accident. =/. You see, this guy (my dad), he won't listens to anyone, I mean hey, eventho he knew that his cacat (polio) but stills wanna sit on his bike. Damn It! He is damn 7 stubborn one of a kind de. Plus, I thinks that the GOD is punishing him, but the question is would he listen and changed after all had happened to him?  Come on. He got into accident and that his leg got fractured, he can't walk, just have to sit on a wheel-chair. (Haiz) .. I know that although I hate him in the outside, but frankly, eventhough for knowing that Im a step of his (the eldest), I still sayang him in the inside. And, today (cuz its morning).. His going for an operation for his fractured leg, I do hope he would be fine there. Plus, maybe I'll bring this laptop along for him so that he wouldn't be boring at all and could also chat with us using skype. Daddy, I do sayangkan you.

If only you know.

Ah well, after there's so many stuff to be solve, Its finally over. Just left daddy, whose gonna go for an operate. Oh ya, not forgetting too, I wanna apologise for those (someone) for being M-I-A in my blog lately, I've been a busy girl since. Yes, seriously, Im back in the firm, plenty of jobs that have to be done. Stupid lawyer firm.!! (hehe) ;P    ;P

Well, guess what? New love arrived. Will update about us soon. Wait ya! There's more!

Got too bored! With accountant thingy.. here some evidence!

Scroll Down dude!!

But before that, FACEBOOK 1st!

if wanna hv more frns, does only FB works? Thrs others too werd. =..="

na .. this my page lor (lol)

Lappy's art-work =D

Ghost? Nope.

reb kiss reb? Nope.

the REB twins sister! xD

all-time-fav! xP

Shots! Aim! BANG! (kidding la)

Scroll Down!

This what happens when your too stress doing ACCOUNTS!

helping the firm counting cash vouchers.(haiz)

my writings. (Urghh!)

this another victim.(me :'(, stress)

victim's new hairstyle. (nice ma?) =/

her world goes upside-down. (kesian kan?)

her work table. (mess, malas nak kemas)

her latest laptop.

HP HDX Premium Series. xD

going FB and online. (poor kid) =/

It look like this. Reb's baby! xD

guess whose?(Durh!) Its her blog la.. =..="

That's it. Im tired. Now these belong to REBECCA!

No copyright allowed. =) Thank You.

Till then,

Stay tuned for more.

Rebecca signing out!

For Your Entertainment - Adam Lambert
Automatic - Tokio Hotel

Bloggies! Hey yall!

Reb is back, with a boring one post..

well, gotta go and have a car wash later on. Guess what?! My sexy-biatch Hsu Anne from Aussie is coming to rock KL with me. Damn! (hehe)

Well, got so addicted with these two songs liao.

anyways, gotta run.. sooner or later will update it soon :)

Till then,

stay tuned for more coming up next!

Rebecca signing out.

James Blunt - Soldier

Xup peoples ..

Here I am, been tryna update the blog but actually she's out of ideas and latest stuffs.

A boring one, gonna make it short enough.

My Gosh~~

Well, actually a new ones arrived in her heart.

Talk about it next time and more pix too!

Do wait!

Till then,

stay tuned for more, my friends.

p/s :: Damn! I've got my hair cutted! hmm .. =(

Happy - Leona Lewis

Well, came in blogging just because darn bored with her studies for perdagangan. Laugh out loud? Cheh! Well Moi went to One Utama with her ponteng-gangs.. Ahakz..

Better believe it, this girl is a no-no to good attitude, but yes good girl GONE bad. =)

So why not take a sneak peek on what she is doing there?

CAMWHORE (durh)

Take 1

the ponteng-gangs =|

Take 2

All-time-favourite ever! sweetZ..

Take 1

the triplets? nope.

Take 2

the bones? too skinny.

Take 3

The smiles =)

Look at me? Kaki Ayam. Pantat!

Yup, she wearing my heels.. same tall huh? hehe..

its me and her against the world.? What?!

Haha.. well that's all for now.

Till then,

stay tuned for more aite. ciaoz people.

Facedrop - Sean Kingston

Here I am again with my lappy. Hello bloggy, Its quite some time now. All through the night I lay awake in my bed with my book beside of me. I've been thinking and wondering what is life if its always full of care and loves, but we have just the time to stand and stare? Stop and stare. Well, maybe I've been such a fool to update this all? I guess that Im just hard-pressed to cope with all kinda things. Like a friend of mine (a guyfriend) when he knew I was down after those breaking-up thang, he came to console me down and advised me. He even told me that although it is kinda bad enough to know the past but maybe it would be intolerable to know the future. Life itself always have its up and down, happy and sad, loving and caring etc. On this matter, he reminded me that there never seem to be enough for people who seek to find relief and escape from meaningless lives and also dreadful existences.

In fact, there are some of the serious questions that need to be answered and also steps taken to avoid possible calamities. And yes, I'd admit that it had been the sweetest thing in that day when he is there when i needed someone. To be frank, never in my life had I felt this sighed with relief before. Perhaps this what friends are for. I suppose I should look at my life with optimism and feel thankful that they are alive, the likelihood that I will go out to do the things that I love to do and not forgetting to enjoy every single minute of it. The Sun will always shines for people who can do this, Im getting older, not younger. Reaching to the life of 18th, which is the starting point of going college and working. It ain't gonna be easy for me to be in outside world there all by my own. Its much more tough, it has full packed of adventures and dangers too. Life's only a tough proposition, and the first hundred years are the hardest.

On top of all these things, I'd say family and friends are the necessary parts of a person's life. They act as companions in our voyage through life. And with them too, we experience and share many things. Learn to love, hate, joke, and be a normal-functioning human being. This kinda "learning process" is a wonderful thing except at the times when I am forced to do things that I do not want to do. My words are final. For now, I am much more matured and big girl enough to look after myself. I don't need anyone to tell me what to do that could decide my future. And by this matter too, I was bombarded with all sorts of arguments and advises. And this is one I dislikes. Ordinary life itself is filled with enough drama and excitement to stimulate the senses. I mean there are other distasteful things I do not like to do, but these are few in numbers. Most things do have some kind of loveliness in them. Just like the old song goes :: "Everything is beautiful, in its own way", People on the Earth, I could say there is beauty no matter small or big or whatsoever shapes is around us and in everything we do. I look at beautiful things (not human beings) and enjoys them. Well, distasteful things are pale by comparison.

Ok. Back to my part. Recently, I am having breathing problems now. Well, in short, I could hardly breathe with my nose for some time, all I could do is only to kept depending on my mouth-breathing and also medicine. Although Im still on medication now, its not enough. I was outta stock of my medicine. I act as if Im A-OK infront of everyone because I bearing this suffer burden since I was small. What could I do? I feel damn pathetic and helpless. What can I do to get rid of this even tho its already fated. But somehow, when I look at my family, told myself to be stronger and do what I suppose to do. Just look at how time flew past.

And yes, is definitely not probably that most of my years, my experiences were the painful ones. Not forgetting too! I will NOT bring up that matter (bout me and Joshua) ever again. So don't ask why. DOT! What is already gone, already gone. And now, Rebecca is not a part of anywhoseoever's life anymore. What is finish, its done. My words are final. But for now, Im suffering because have to bear the heavy burden all along. Nothing is left except the memory of a shared experiences. And for now, Rebecca is gonna keep move on even tho she is alone, but its true that she don't needs anyone to bear the suffer or be in the same kinda situation as hers anymore. Live life to the fullest and stay happy. Be positive in everything. =)

Well, I have come to the end of this post. I could go on definitely but I seems tired for now although there stills have much more to tell. Thus again, I've gotta continue my revision for exam and sign off. Maybe I'll come back for another time to update after my SPM is over.

Till then,

stay tuned.

p/s :: Is life too hectic to enjoy fully? Ask yourself. =)

Reb is outta here.