Hey bloggy, Im here again. Yup! its me, the emo-loner for once more. For now, Im kinda sad and maybe a lil regret. I mean yea.. for what had really happen to me is simply unresistable man. Actually, in the very first beginning, I was in full thoughts and Im always stuck between the thoughts on me and him. I don't know what exactly was im thinking on that time, when he tells me that Im the girl that he mainly wanted for his all life. I mean, hey! not everyone is perfect, NOT EVERYONE. I was shock by then when he asks me to get a job which is an airline cabin crew in Air Asia. Ok, i was thinking that was kinda cool cuz I can cope up with some cool people all over the world and also yea travelling, that's what I want for my life man. Hey! sometimes he is kinda understandings, but yea sometimes he is kinda rude to me too by speaks out those f* words.. -sigh- ..
Well, for now all I can do is that Im a big girl now to forgive and forget everything in my life now. Every single memories, promises and future? bout this im not so sure what it brings me to, i suppose that this future is only left for us to be seen and its always unpredictable ones. Hmm.. I don't have any words left for now I feel kinda sad and regret of just left him aside. I mean yes, I dumped him aside. I really don't know what Im doing by that time. Maybe I was a dumbo by then? I've been thinking that why is that Im in a relationship with a guy that I don't even know in person. And plus, I don't even know who he is or whatever his background was like. I guess Im a fool in this matter? I don't know man. I mean, yes i should know every single detailed about him. Maybe this what I don't realise in this matter. Waddafcuk! I hates when it comes to this matter. Am I still dreaming or "khayal"? I don't wanna know what is going around him .. I just spend too much time of missing him and kept blogging just ................
I just hatez this feeling now. I feel so damn heartless and meantime too, I feels sux about this.
So yea, maybe I still need times to forgive and forget everything. I really apologise for this had to happen to us. I guess he also wanna know why? Alright then. I'll say it now. Right here and right now. I ask to break up is because I felt that your not the guy that mainly what I really need and plus you always fcuk me around, Damn! I hates it so much, remember when you simply accuse me for creating the god-damn facebook account whosoever fcuktArd bastard named "bernard james" ! Gah!! fcuk it man! Your the one who is dreaming of this all, and now I am seriously hating you more and more after all that stupid accusation of yours. You really damn pathetic. Get a life would ye? Maybe my life is should be better and A-OK without you at the first place. Maybe I was wrong in everything, but you could open your mouth and tell me straight away right? But did you? NO comment. Im outta words when it comes to you. I really don't know what you thinks of me man even tho you don't even know me in person, and so do I. Maybe this was the first mistakes that we took. We only do our lil intro in cellphone and also in msn. That's wrong man. -sigh-
I suppose that I would like to stop over here now. Im not gonna brought up this matter ever again. What is gone, its gone. Whatever is over, its already over and it will never comes back. And yea, one more thing, Don't ever ask me how am I or whatsoever. I DISLIKES talking to you. Thank you.
Stay tuned.
Till then. Stay updated for more. =)
p/s: If only you know, sometimes sorry got no cures.
rebecca is already gone. now and forever.
needs rest here. Its peacefull. =) buhbye.
