Enjoy =)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

THE WHATS AND WHY'S?


Do I look thin?
Do I look hot?
Am I matured enough?
Am I pretty?
Am I a virgin?
Am I popular?

WADDAFUCK IS THIS!?

Am I gonna be like this forever?
What do I exactly get from what I learned these years?
Despite all advises that I get from my family, do I really understands what they'r telling me?
Why must I always listen and cares what people thinks?
Why do I always have to care how other people feels?
What is actually happening around me?


Im not asking for some "fairy-tale love story", I just want my normal single life back.
If only I could just make things right, but it always seems to be mess.
The guy that I love, i cherish, i cares,
Does he know that I still keep my feelings for him?
Even though that he never takes me as his, its okay its alright. because i only cares about what I think. Maybe he is just tryna be nice to me like what he did to all his girl-friends.

And what hurts the most is, I did try to tell him how I feels about him for all these years but does he really take it seriously? No comment. It starts with I like you. I miss your smile. And it hurts when he didn't really bother about what im doing. Because he is a playboy. He is just a type of guy that will only plays with my feelings.



AND,



ONCE A PLAYBOY, ALWAYS A PLAYBOY!
BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER TRULLY UNDERSTANDS HOW PPL FEEL!



FUCK YOU JERK!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

A kiss is not a kiss if it's not returned! You know what to do! Kiss Me Back... I meant it!

How amazing to think that if he is the one who feel the love today then sent it back to his lover, and you knew that before the days end, it's possible that everyone on world could feel the love that we had!

So I was thinking why not lets finish the week off in a really great way by spending some time together and share the lonely night together under a shade and share the romantic nights by hugging each other!

If my lips claimed yours,
would you kiss me back?

If I laid my cheek upon your chest,
would you wrap your arms around me?

If I told you that I need you,
would you hear my words?

If I told you that I love you,
would you say you love me too?

If I asked you if you want me,
would you whisper

something touching,

something urgent,

something hot and passionate?

Or would you answer me with a kiss?

If my lips claimed yours,
would you kiss me back?



p/s:: Honey, i really need to talk to you.
But i don't get what is that you want from me actually?
It's been days since we talk.
I'm really sorry for what I've done but i do really want you back in my life
at least for once again.


Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Push it baby. Push it baby Out of Control

Just the way you are my new love <3

Morning sunshines.
Well, just a short one.

-sigh- I been awake since the sleepless nights and still awaits for his call since yesterday. I was expected an happy call from him, but in the end he didn't even do it. I waited till 1am. . . .2am. . .3am. . .but stills no calls.  I wondered what is he doing at the time, he should have left me any message even if he is too busy or something like that, right? yes. -down- The last night that we talk is only last for an hour ni, -sigh- And, he did told me that he got something to do, and I was like "umm, okay". -swt- Ah well, anyways, just got my lovely present from my jie (annie), a dress! Thank you jie! I love it so darn muchie. x)
I have been thinking lately, why am i always be the one who hurted alot? i certainly have no idea Maybe im just the type that easily fall for in to.

Why not just try to start a new life in case of stuck being in the old? It's a brand new year aite! So what am i looking forward to in 2010? (boh idea!! >.<")

Don't say you love me if that's not what you meant,
Don't say you cares about what or who i am,
Don't say your hurt because of me,
Don't say your sorry if your just a fake,
Don't ever act like a kid infront of me,
Don't ever say your sorry for what you have done to me,
Don't say that im your one and only, for the only reasons which not at all.

Take note everytime the grandfather clock chimes
for you can never turn back time
always try to reach for books on the shelf
for its the only way to improve yourself

I might be lost and fading today
after what been brought from yesterday
but someday i'll find my own way out
i might have lotsa friends when i'm happy
but i will only see the true ones when i cry

Take life one day at a time
for only then maybe i will shine
telling myself that my dreams and hope are as sweet as wine
and someday i'll make 'em mine

Never give up on hope
for there's always a someone will help you cope
although i might not have anything left to gain
but i could always start all over again.




anyways, gotta continue my pfft work.GAH!
Reb is signing out.
xoxo all.


p/s:: Melissa Beh, don't always so emo.
Think straight ahead, try to leave your past behind.
Try to live happily if you can.
Trust me once you can do it, you'll be set free and live up! xoxo.

The World Behind My Wall

Hello once again.

I apologise to those who awaits for my new updates here. Yes, i'd admit that since i've worked in a crazy lawyer firm, i've seriously freaking busy and also almost neglect my babyblog. Sorry to my boyfie, that i couldn't take any free time just to be with you. Well, i'll try to make it up on that. But before that, this post are only meant for type of ppl like me. -sigh-



you know.. just when i open myself up completely, in here.
i could almost lose everything, even faith and just trembles and just shed tears like a small kid.
i cant seem to trust anyone or anything nowadays. And I cant tell why?
I could just try to fake a smile even tho I try to smile.
how many lies, promises and illusions must i wade through?
im getting sick, tired and fcuked up.
every day and night.
i missed everything. everything that i love.
but im just another yesterday. And every single day is always a brand new day.
its for me to know, and for you to find out..
im no longer lonely but i feel incomplete.
or maybe i am, but i just wont admit.
the pieces has stopped breaking but the hurt sure has not.
this piece of heart is empty but its all that i have got.
this bed feels so empty, so big and so cold. just when your not around.
the feeling of loss and of grief that wont fade away.
i try to keep busy but I couldn’t just forget.
its not that i dont miss you or don’t love you, you know that i do.
but im telling you its the pride which stands in the way between me and you.


Its been lately, You have treated me like crazy from the beginning of this relationship. And that moment too i worked so hard all the time for you. where is your trust? where is the real you or your just not being yourself when your with me just because we'r only the so-called bf/gf in the cellphone? you always complaining your sad, your hope and kept on sigh as if like im the one who is giving you a damn heavy burden. so what if i made a few mistakes here and there? you could just come and talk to me right. I don't mind. everyone makes mistakes. no one is the “perfect” typo. does it justify the ways you torture me? The sleepless and tiring nights i spent awake just trying to understand everything that you wanted me to? the last minute adjustments and commitments that i always had to make just to please you? you have always been an **** to me . so its up to you whether you believe me when I say im glad to say good riddance.


If only you realise for just a day, I’ve been spending the rest of my life, looking for someone like you. I remember how we met, by taking my cell number just to make a call and yes, you did. And by that time too, "You came into my life and i thought hey, you know, this could be something cause everything you do and words you say" but there is so much time to figure out the rest of my life. Im saying all this doesn't mean that I wanna hurt your or whosoever feelings k. Alright, let's just say, Im might be a bullshitter, but i've definitely, not probably changed A LOT! I've already sacrifise and fall for the wrong one once and I promised myself that by that day onwards i will change and will never ever be in a relationships again. But, look what happen now? its crazy. My ex? -sigh-.. sometimes just look at a glance of eyes on him, it makes me feel nuts. but, what happen is i've lied to him and yeah, i've bullshitted too. I regret of what i've done in the past. More or less, saying sorry wasn't just a enough for him to forgive and forget. -sigh- maybe that's what i deserve for. Falling into a wrong one? yea. Deeply inside of me, i've been a physically-emotional at all times. I repeat! AT ALL TIMES. =) but after when that happens, thankfully there's a best friend of mine told me what to do and repent all my mistakes and the do's. She always giving advises to us, like i said she is my counsellor.. hmm..overall, i cried. So, for now maybe i just follows what her hearts tell her. And hopefully, one day, the real happiness is there awaits me. Anyhoo, Babyblog is still in progress at the moment ...


Till then. xoxo.



p/s : Readers, if you feels anything or wanna ask,
do leave message. Don't hesitate to show yourself.
Take care.



Reb signing out.