haha..
hmm.. well for now.. actually not much to say, its just that just a simple-dimple one.
hmm -sigh-..
been thinking.well yeah its true that it is definitely easy to always tells others not to worry, but is always a problem that less easy to take such advise for my own. Just for my own good. God. =X
and yeah eventually i din even sleep the whole day. I mean yeah almost 24/7 damn! panda! =D haha...hmm.. anyways yesterday morning @round 1 a.m. talking on the phone with my babe Mandy.. haha. i was freak out at the first place because we both involve almost in everything..and durh i admit that we do sometimes bump into the similar things..such as in relationships..haha.. and whatever problems we got, we always be "sharing-is-caring". Haha! I just simply love her man!Damn!.. and yeah yesterday she did told me bout hers and so do i. And she did ask for my opinion / suggestion on helping solving her MAJOR problem which is making a damn IMPORTANT decision ever that would, i say would probably change her life in the future. She is a understanding person to me. She always helps me solve my problem. I just felt that she is like a guardian friend that was given for me. Damn! How lucky am i weih.. Haha xD.. when im with her i do really feel easy and free.. unlike at home have to like always YEAH I MEAN ALWAYS obey to the rules. Well they have their own rules so do us.. hehe.. =P hmm.. haha Mandy was like damn 7 panic at that time when she called me and told me so. I was like yeah just say out the truth and tell her what to do. Damn! haha..but then Mandy also did told me that the guy confess to *** .. and she is having problem on either accept or rejects ***?!! haiz.. what a love life.. that guy is almost like my boy ICE [his nickname]. I mean durh he is a sweet-talker..every guy is if they want something in repay. =P but for Mandy, she is different. She don't want the guy to be hurt like her past. [not gonna mention] hehe.. she is a truly strong girl that i've ever met in my life.Unlike some other friends of mine, once they have their "broke-up" season, they would [durh] probably express to me first and yeah i would just like give them some advice to say not to worry there are more better guys in world, u can man man find them, But of coz not the good ones la.
But thought of giving them an impression of calm and steadiness but inside of me, yeah indeed i knew much more better. Again and again my worries were for nothing. They just don't understands what i mean at all. Haiz.. this probably what they called the "the monkey generation in being relationships". xD not mention me la ok. =] Everything went smoothly in the beginning and I "sailed" through the whole thing without a hitch. Thought on the part of my life will be smooth and perfect, on this very first place, didn't knew that the starting part of my love life would be a hard one but yup with the advices from relatives, friends etc. I can handle my problems all by myself. Damn! look the way i talk is just like a grown-up Kid.. wtF! hahas. xDDwell for now is like most all the 365/24/7 hehe.. im almost being myself and yeah i memang myself.. Friends always tell me that dun ever try to be somebody or a wannabe because u'll get yourself hurt badly and that could spoil ur own imej babe.. I was like OH OKAY! haha.. love them!!
hmm..
so what about my love life...?!! I don't know what to say seriously. I just love him thats all.. He is my life and my world. He never tries to hurt me not even once. He loves me for who i am although im not ****** anymore. I love him so much till the end of the world. He is my world now and yeah all i wanna say that I will always love him for who he is. He wants me not because of my sexy features. He wants me because im kinda special to him [thats what he say].... Damn! Everyday and every night he would probably be calling to check on me. He even ask to hang out [haven yet] just to be with me. He is always by my side whenever im sick, he would yeah jaga me and comfort me just like a baby. He always be true to me although he know that whatever i say that could hurts him. But most of the time i care for his feelings and so do him.. Just love him so much. Being a part in my life, it isn't really that easy,the truth is that i can be very choosy sometimes although he already knew that. And he did promise that he will always love me no matter what. To me, being in a relationships isn't about how the guy's figure are, is what the guy thinks about you and the reason why he wants to be with you, but mostly look deep in his heart, tries to understands him more and by that maybe u can see whether he is sincere or something else. That is all up to you.
All i can say is being a girl ain't easy, because YOU are the one who bears the pain forever when ur being dumped by your boyfriend like a TONG SAMPAH/RUBBISH! Oh well.. just could say some guys althought they are better-looking or hot, they ARE not worth it. Cause once they already got ur pussy, then after that they just dumped you aside and starting treating you like as your not "anyone" to him. FcUk! -skip-
At last, I Love You Ice!...xDD
To be continued..if im free =P
