Hmmmm .... For today is kinda like a sad-world to everyone in the beginning includes me..Uncle Bernard, which is my LAWYER BOSS, my stepmom [youngest], my sister JO, etc.. Well. actually it's suppose to be a happy day by then. But, since I fell sick last 3 days, and my fever still on haihh.. everything in office starting to change, and yes indeed its changing. At first, I was thinking why everyone starting to look sad-emo ...?! O.o" I was like wondering maybe is because of my health or something else haihh ... what a life? .. A total different life man .... >.<"
First thing is that yeah on the thought of my boss, Messrs Bernard Francis. Maybe he get upset or kinda down its because of, probably because of the case in Singapore. Probably his upset of that case its because he spent almost everything and also spent more effort in it too. I mean a guy like mmy boss, truthfully he is one of a workaholic ever, his nice, caring but sometimes when he gets angry, you don't/can't see the fire burning in him, he will sudden "burst out" .. lOl ?! nvm ... =)
Mmmm ... talk about my dad.. Gosh~~ he is really damn pissed since last week, let just say that since he fell from the floor cause of slippery. MG! I mean although he knew my bio mom hates me alott, but still he dun give a damn and on that time too, he called home to ask that chinese stepmom of mine to come to office immediately. And yeah, the worst thing is ... he complains to her and also my bio mom by saying that me and my younger stepmom dun wanna jaga him anymore. WtF! When I heard everything he said to her, I was like @@! ...then damn! start tearings :'| -sigh- I mean maybe those who really reads my blog, maybe its kinda hard to believe what im trying to say because maybe they are lucky than me? or its just something else larh.
Ok. I mean straight to the point, it is really calm to blog and also by blogging I can share almost of my stories especially when it comes to the part of my life. Damn! This is seriously a retarded blog ever man.. -sigh- Talk about dad again, he is indeed ........ A GREEDY OLD MAN!! I mean realistically speaking, I also do know that money is an important thing in everybody's life and so do mine. Well but always have to remember that moderation is always the key to life and that is how a person should live or spent the money. But for my dad, he is seriously greedy in this topic. I mean, ok let's just consider a man who spends most of his times at outside fcuking other bitches and also trying to accumulate wealth. Maybe he also realises that others are also trying to do the same thing. But question is :: how does one grabs hold of what others desire too? if wealth, cannot be obtained by one way, other ways may be employed in any other way. And yeah! my dad! This man lies and cheat others to get what he wants. But however similarly others will cheat and also they might be also manipulating him too. Who knows this could happen, right? And the truth is, basically if this man's luck holds, he succeeds. Otherwise he falls, pcks himself up and tries again. The never ending game continues. Like what I heard from a old man, he says always live within your mean and the word "corruption is rife".. I mean why is he doing this all although he knew its haram but stills doing it especially starting up that crazy bussiness ever! [dun wanna mention it]... =skip= .... haihh
Like I said it before, there are full of drama, scene, hatres, love, etc.. I mean or I guess people whosoever are really lucky for not being in my position although they are not happy with their life, but still they have their loved ones who are always be there with them. haihh... All I can say is if I'm not a understanding person, I dun think I do really care about all this shit happening around me, but seriously it is truly a damn heavy burdento me now. I felt like dying rather than carrying this whole burden on my own. I really could not bear the burden anymore. I always ask myself why is this situation have to happen after Popo is gone forever. I knew this gonna happen after she past away and just left me her all alone. I mean the one and only I loved :'( the most among all is only my oldest grandmother. And now, she's gone from my world and I really miss her so much!! :'( I've expressed all out, but actually its not considered all yet. For now, I just revealed the half part of stories bout my life and yeah indeed it is really killing me slowly and slowly... .... And for me, I could say that I am really really really lucky to have a guy who really does understands, caring and spends most of his time with me even though he has much more to consider in his life. But he, always put me as his first priority in his life, and he always tells me that he really loves me, he really wanna share everything and always ask to be apart in my life. I mean it!! Sometimes, I feel ashamed of myself, maybe I was thinking too much till I really got depressed myself. But after all I do really loves him much more than my ex. He is one of a kind really. But in the end, bout my families life, is there any solution to get rid of all this shit!!
-sigh-
To be continued ...
