when the day you say "im sorry.. cuz of this word.. our relationship is end.. "..and u say ur sorry..
to me...for some reason it hurts..
Its like a magic spell that doesnt get undone.. its like a hint to bitterness..
sometimes felt like im totally stuck in between a friend and a lover when im vit u...
its like an unripe fruit dreaming about the day of harvest....
and i also felt being unable to just .. just move one more step forward...
maybe this is what causing all stupid crap attitude of mine...
and yes.. i do.. i do still rmb all of ur "sweet n gentle" conversations...GROSS!!
well...those words spark no interest in me anymore..
even when the things do not go the way i wanted...
but.. at least im not that kind of doll that u think i am...
but it doesnt mean i've thrown my life away...
and yea.. i did ask u "baby, whats wrong?".... and u replied me rudely..by saying...
"NOTHING LA.." ... "i don wan talk"...
and on that time, i knew there is smth wrong..
and all happen in sudden... the smile that always cheer up has begin to dissappears after hearing those words u've said....
and yea... for some reasons it really hurts....
Like i've said to u before..."i like you"... instead of " i love you".. din't i ..???
it doesnt sounds like me anymore....im totally changed...
and yes...starting the period when i suddenly rmb..the scent of sumbody that i luv had almost vanish...forgotten...
like old ppl says..." the white purity of the falling snow"...
couples...??! really want to be able to open and honestly cherish it ..???? crapz.....
i really dun wanna memorise all those sweet memories between u n me...
its really hurts a lotzz.... ur hug... ur sweet kiss... ur everything...
and on that limited time that we have.. i really do hope of spending time more jz to be vit you..
but in the end..gone.. everythings vanish.... but i realise things sometimes don go the way u want
i still can rmb the STUPIEST words that i always remind myself...
i wana be here eternally, to a place whr nobody cn find us...and all i can see u're all that i need...
OMG!! cut it off man!! ..
well... in the end of this dam crap stories....
i guess sometimes when im vit you..i think YOU are the person who likes to hide the truth behind a really good lie and hide our status from reality in a really really really dam great dreams of urs...!!!! eventhough we are that sort of couple...but u still dun seem to care AT ALL!! and thought of loving...OH~~SHIISHH!!! GV ME A BREAK!!...its no use~!!
and lastly u r the one who leave me vit the sry word of urs n all i can see is jz grey skies...kept raining all the time.....i really wanna stop all this crap la.... knowing it would be hard..
and YES~!! its really hard for me to let everything go....
ok FINE~!!!...i'll try all my best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i jz wanna have a happy life..vit my best friends...especially mandy..leng and also mag...
i do really want my normal life back...
plz .... dun wanna think no more..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FORGETS YOU!!!JAYZ BACK OFF!!!!!!
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