Hello bloggy,
As far as I can recall, I have not been very attentive towards my studies for the first half of the year. As a result, I obtain poor passes in all the subjects. My teachers and parents advise me to double up my efforts so as to achieve better marks in the coming Trial Exams. But i could manage of getting 2nd place in my class for Khairul, the smarter nerdy-look guy took my 1st place. But somehow I am inclined to take things easy. Damn! I realise that i have actually failed my teachers and parents miserably by my stupid poor performance. And most of all I have FAILED myself! Gah! My future is at stake! T..T. . .
I also realise that many a golden time have i allowed to waste away in idleness and fooling around. I know that if i continue to adopt this lackadaisical attitude, i am DOOMED TO MORE FAILURE!! For now, i have a short time to catch up on my studies. And for all that, my mind is made up! I must not let down my teachers, friends, bibi and also parents. In this way round, i could have the more knowledge at the tips of my fingers. Futhermore, they too tell me to consult the examination guide-books which are available in bookshops and study how the questions are dealt with. But also warn me not to overwork myself. As the saying goes by, "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy", I ought to divide my time wisely so that I have sufficient time for study, for play, for food, for exercise and also for sleep.
I mean if i do all these, then I should be able to pass my exams with "FLYING COLOURS". Above all, they tell me not to be nervous and become a victim of "exam fever". These are ailments of those who do not prepare for their subjects well. On the other hand, some of my friends tell me to take things easy. If you don't wanna study, why bother? They say. Useless betul! Let fate decide what the future holds for you. I mean whatever the future brings we have no guarantee nor certainty. For I, only know that when the future becomes present, many surprises occur and most of them are pleasant. Even the bad things are tolerable, so there is no point for me of keep on worrying.
The truth is that, these friends do not make any effort to improve their studies. They merely go through the motion of studying when the teacher asks them to do so, well dun misunderstands on this matter, for I am not saying anyone here okay. There is no commitment or enthusiasm in their work. Maybe they have resigned themselves to eventual failure. I realise that I have been behaving like them but I am determined now NOT to let the situation worsen. I will NOT allow myself to be overcome by hopelessness or complacency.
I also know that only hard work from now on is kinda like late but it stills will do me any good. I know a better future awaits those who passes good examinations grades and I intend to be one of those kinda people too. In a way, getting good results would probably be a sort of repayment to my both parents and teachers for all the dedication, edu, support, care and also attentions they have given me. Thus, "The Will To Succed" has already becoming one of my motto and by following it too I could probably knew that success will come to my way. But for now, I could say that it's been a year that I have to bear my burden on my own, but now as I am having my life-partner, Deejay J who are sharing everything in me, with me. I also know that he wouldn't just leave me all alone here, but sometimes I do know that he is always trying his best for me. And for that too, I heart him alotZ. . .and it's uncountable. =)
Thus on the whole, I must say that I am quite an actress too. Well, all of us are. We have to because circumstances do not permit us to do as we please. People have to act in certain ways so as not to disturb the order of things. In short, we have to live and let live. Well, I have come to the end of this, I could go on indefinitely for I have many stories to tell out, but I am expected to close here. Thus again, I have to give in to expectation and sign off.
Till then.
Stay tuned for more updates bah! . . .
p/s :: I miss you Bi. Every single day and night.
Wishing you were here laying by myside and
never let me go. .
Just want you to know that I'm always stuck on the thoughts of me and you.
Missing you prettyboy.
xoxo . . . .
